Re-Scheduled Surgery

So, we have an update on here already concerning Mattie's upcoming surgery: it has been re-scheduled. Dr. Pham had an emergency and we needed to change the day from Wednesday to Friday morning (6 am arrival!) This will give more time for healing and prayer to occur for our brave little boy. We do not mind the change as Jason and I already worked out our job schedules and will both be there on the day of the surgery. We know that God has all this in the palm of His hand and that there is a reason to even these small changes occuring.

As I completed Mattie's wound dressing on his arm (which is the only time of the day that it is uncovered), many thoughts came to my mind. We each have wounds we carry in our lives, some of us carry them in a very visable way for all to know and see, while others of us carry them deep inside. The wounds we carry are all different but feel the same...they hurt and are painful. Mattie gets fearful, of the wound cleaning time and will send himself into complete panic as the anxiety he faces will overcome him. Seeing this occur, I have learned to comfort him by reassuring him over and over again, in a calm voice that I will not hurt him and that I love him and want him to get better. I let him know, that I understand it hurts and give him hugs of support. I allow him to do as much as he can, on his own to care for his wounds; he will un-wrap the dressings and dab the area with his wet washcloth. When he cleans he is careful not to rub the areas that cause pain (as we try to repair our hurts on our own, the cleansing is not deep enough to heal, just to look and feel better for awhile). But then I will use the same washcloth, holding his arm still and quickly but efficently wash over the area removing all the old medicine and build up from the wound. (this is like what our Heavenly Father does for us, that we can not do for ourselves). He has learned that when I clean it, I will be fast and the process will go quicker even if it is painful and he seems to be trusting me more each day to care for him. Though it is a battle to release the washcloth from his hand to mine, he is learning to trust those who care for him to not cause harm to his body but care for him through the pain. (This is the battle I face myself, to trust God to get me through the pain of this experience with my son. I daily am passing him the "washcloth" in hopes he will make the process go by faster and that he will help Mattie's pain go away).

One question, I have been asked is what does Mattie know about the surgery? We have explained to him that we are going back to the hospital for another stay and the doctors there are going to help his arm get better. He seems content with that much information and trust that as long as he is with his parents he will be ok. We will be praying with him for God to heal him through the surgery, on Thursday night, as well.

Thanks again for the support and love you have all shown to us, and know that whatever hurt you are facing in your life, God knows your pain and hears your suffering. Lean on him for strength and trust him for your healing.......